whew...

currently listening to: Fork and Knife by Brand New


So at this point in time, I find myself in a position I never thought I'd end up at. I don't like nor do I approve of it happening. I find myself facing receiving my second D since 2nd grade and my first D in higher education. I think it's well-deserved because I didn't put as much time into the class as I should have done---All of my time and energy was put into organic chemistry and all I did was drop it one week before late-drop deadline. I feel like a failure to myself and to the others who have believed in me. After I realized my possible fate I didn't just become apathetic and allow it to be my fate; I've been endlessly trying to patch up my failure by redeeming myself and I'm aiming to show my professors that I can study and I am not at all the failure I feel I am.

I have changed my career interests and have almost landed where I started way back in my junior year of high school. I wanted to be an OB/GYN and that dream is too far off. However, I am going to try to come close to realizing this dream by striving at becoming a Physican's Assistant. I mean the job is recession-proof and very fulfilling. I KNOW I went from being a Nursing major to Biotechnology to Biobehavioral Health. I mean things happen for a reason and I guess this is the path that I'm going. Fuck what other people think of me. I will succeed.